Had a great Diwali celebration today... cleaned, cooked snacks and sweets, did some shopping... was fun! It was my little baby's second Diwali after birth last year .. so had to be great!
After days of tiresome work in preparations for the festivity, it was worth it... as we call off the day.. i am ponder over the childhood memories... getting nostalgic.. missing my mother and siblings...
This year, this Diwali was different... deep down my heart was and is sinking... something isn't right... and it makes me long for a lost bliss and happiness that used to be there... I am helpless... and despite things that are happening actfully in a peaceful way and despite all the celebrations in a religious manner... despite all these superficial brightness there is sorrow, gloominess hidden beneath attempting to come out... I miss a thing called family... miss a thing called love... a thing called empathy from my loved one... a thing called trust... despite being surrounded by my family I feel I am soo soo lonely... this is the day I have nobody nobody at all I can vent my heart out to... sometimes the world gets soo soo cruel that despite they see your misery they let you suffer... they keep hurting you... there are days when you have them as your people and days when they turn soo against you!! Yes, I have someone too who seems to have been lost.. have been taken away by someone or something very evil... the situations are such that despite you being innocent and being a victim of situations you are the one considered a demon...
I am sorry I started the blog on a happy note and ending it in a sorrow.. if you are reading this please feel free to Express your feelings... maybe I am not alone... it's a huge world maybe there is someone else too going through a similar situation.. kindly leave a comment before leaving... please pray for me... I need god soo much right now...
